#9 this hair (pic)

So, not sure about the hair.. feeling like I gotta cover it up with something else now. The light brown doesn't seem like the right shade. I have black underneath. But it just didn't come out right I think. My friend Frankie thinks it looks fine. I don't know. I told him I'd give it a little time to grow on me. Steve thought I missed the back and KM chimed right in about something she didn't know anything about, claiming  that he was right. No, I did get it.. the color before just bled through. I don't think there's anything I can do with it that he will like. Why do I care? I hadn't before with any guy I've ever been with. Never cared what the guy thought at all, it my hair and I gotta wear it!.. I'm crazy for caring now..

But you know, when Steve came home today, he didn't notice that the house was clean.. (I mean.. it's always clean, but it's even more clean) He only noticed that I had filled the walmart trash bag in doing so, and it hadn't been taken out yet. That was kinda a blow in the face. He wanted to go back cause the Walmart bag was full of trash.
I don't get men mentality. I don't get why nothing can just be good enough. I don't understand why he expects me to be perfect. I do know though, as much I want him around.. if he keeps being negative and can't seem to see the great things in life... the things I do for him.. Maybe say thank you that I make sure he doesn't have to do anything when he comes home, it's all clean, dinners started, watch TV, and relax. Instead, I get asked what I've done.. well... Manners would be nice, cause I can't take the fits and criticism with no thank you's and glad to be home.

Wish Steve would get a clue. Hope that he will..

Though it did make me feel good that he stood up for me at Viega. Though everyone is upset about me being let go, and is asking why didn't they just move me? Well i was already looking into moving to first shift as KM needs me home in the evening when she goes back to school. And even asked about another area I was interested in. So that option was already there.
 Apparently I am a secret. They don't wanna talk about what happened. So whatever the big secret is, clearly its something your not supposed to fire for... or why not tell? Steve told them he doesn't wanna be there. It's only money that keeps him there for now. People liking you and doing a good job does not cement your job with them. I am proof of that. Makes a person want to get out on their own terms. And I get that. What ever Steve does is of his own mind and his own decision. I have nothing to do with it. But it is nice to know, he does stick up for me. He does care. He doesn't want to stand by while I get kicked. Basically, like me... he has a fire in his ass.. lol, and I gotta love that.

So In all.... ya, he's a jerk for not noticing what he should if he's gonna criticize the small things. But he's my most important supporter when the cards are down. I just wanna hug him and thunk him all at the same time. My Steve....

Life with Steve isn't what people would think... But I'm still head over heals if he will just take a good look at what he's got. I'm head over heals with a man that stands taller for me then any man ever has... My Steve.